The Past Few Days

So I haven't been on here in a few days....
Well, I haven't done anything rather spectacular. I did work Wednesday. I have to say I really love my job! I love working with the kids =]They are amazing and it makes me feel good that I can help the kids to learn something.
I've had kind of a difficult week. My friend Courtney was feeling really down about herself and I tried cheering her up. To quote one of my dad's sermon's "You are a dearly loved, created, redeemed child of God." We all need to remember this. Especially when we are feeling down about ourselves. Society expects all of us girls to look perfect all the time. But they need to be snapped back to reality. Not everyone is skinny, has the perfect skin, and so on. Real beauty is when you can look in the mirror and not see what society see's as something bad. Your family and friends love you just the way you are. Even if you are over weight. So what? You are you for a reason. God doesn't make mistakes.
God also doesn't give us more than we can handle. I have been struggling with this lately. It seems like everything is out to get me and bring me down. This morning my best friend Jon decided to be rather... mean. Jealousy never looks good on anyone, and it hurts those closest to you. Needless to say, I am rather hurt today. He is one of the people closest to me and I don't like when this happens. It about breaks my heart every time he does this.
On a good note, My niece Jezzamine was born finally on Wednesday morning! I'm so glad she is here. Even if I can't spoil her as much as I would like to. She is beautiful and makes me want to fly out and see her right now. Sadly I will have to wait until this summer, or whenever my family goes back to Michigan.
My writer's block has ceased to keep me from having ideas! I have been working on one of my stories and thinking about what I can do with some of the others. It has been almost a year since I have worked on any of my stories. So this sudden burst of inspiration is out of nowhere! I'm not complaining about it. Maybe I will finish one of my stories! Who knows...

Opportunity strikes!

Yesterday I had an opportunity to work with a chef! It was awesome! I did have to cut out towards the end because I had a tutoring appointment. I had debated for a long time about becoming a chef. One big problem though, I can't stand for long periods of time. I get really light headed and dizzy and feel like i'm about to pass out. I think that wouldn't be a very good thing in the cooking industry unless i sat down a lot or was constantly moving my legs.
Well I had that problem last night when I was filling cannoli's. I had to go and sit down for a few minutes. After I sat down I made sure that I would kinda move while I was filling them. I was very grateful to learn from this experience with the chef.
I want to go into teaching young children, preferably special education. I'm going to get my degree in early childhood development with a minor in music. I do want to run my own bake/coffee shop at some point, so i'll probably throw in another minor and have a degree in baking.
Baking is one of my passions, other than music. (Which is always on full blast when i'm cooking anything.) I have a knack for it and i rather do enjoy it.
Music is a major thing for me. I've been around it my entire life. I have played bass guitar for about 8 years now. I do want to finish learning guitar, but that would require my dad to have a less hectic schedule. It will happen! I also have done a lot with vocal work. So my minor in music will most likely be centered on vocal music.
I have a knack with children. I especially have a knack for special needs kids. I currently work at a preschool, which i absolutely LOVE, and it is a great experience. I like helping kids to learn things. That i know will have an impact on their lives. My second grade teacher had a HUGE impact on my life and i'm glad she helped me learn. I hope to be like her someday. She was a truly amazing teacher.

Hello!

I just recently moved out here and am just now getting somewhat "on my feet" again. Things have been a whirlwind this past year. My best friend moved in with me, I graduated from high school, I moved across the country, got a new church family, my grandmother died, i lost/got my best guy friend back.
All these things are good, but they messed with my "plan". I was going to go to college full time and get my life started and all that jazz.
Well my life style changed a bit when Cindy moved in. We had to cut back on some things and share a room. That was fun.
Graduating from high school was the greatest day of my life. I literally despised the school I went to for my Junior and Senior year.
Moving across the country was somewhat difficult. I was leaving everything I knew. All my "kids" and people I had known my entire life. Alas, My dad's job moved us here, to Colorado, and I couldn't be happier!
I miss my Otisville church family, but my Northwest church family is pretty amazing too. I felt so welcome when we got out here. It made it so much easier.
I lost my Grandma Val in October of 2011. I had been living out here for about 2 months. She was the most amazing woman I had ever known, aside from my Grandma Rosie. They are my inspirations for cooking/baking. I can only hope to be half the cooks they were. I love and miss them dearly.
I lost my best friend Jon a few weeks before Christmas. I was crushed. But i got him back a couple weeks into 2012! I was happy. I seriously missed talking to him about my frustrations and music and everything else. He did hurt me, but that happens sometimes. You get put in an ultimatum situation and you had to choose one or the other. I was just sad he didn't choose our friendship over something that wasn't going to last. He told me last night about the first time he saw me and how he had to get to know me. It made me cry. Not a bad cry though. He finally gave me the apology I really wanted from him. It was heart felt and honest. It took him a while, but I knew he had it in him. =]